Just me...

In the darkness of the night
when everyone sleeps...
alone in a room..
my heart weeps...
while everyone dreams
i am wide awake...
thinking of the loves and losses..
the pain and the heartbreak..
people look at me n say i m shy...
they do not know
that i'm afraid to try...
to open the doors
to my broken heart...
to let them see
every bit and part...
coz i know how it feels..
to be hurt n brood..
to be left alone..
to be battered and used...
sum think i'm crazy...
others feel i'm wierd...
i need to be pushed...
to be happy and cheered...
no one realises...
that even though i smile...
how much pain hides...
behind the joy in my eyes
every moment,every place...
i continously speak..
but thats just a way to keep the tears
from falling down my cheek...
sumtimes i hate the world...
at times myself i hate...
with a life so sad...
and nothing goin gr8...
but life goes on and time passes by...
and i hope for that colorful rainbow
that appears in the sky...
but for now...i live...day in day out....
do not oppose and do not shout...
in the darkness that seeps...
as the loneliness creeps...
alone in a room
where no one can see...
its JUST ME...its JUST ME....