The Secret Wooden Box

Today I crammed away a part of my soul
As the tears once more time begin to unfold
Of yesterday's memories, stolen from
Surrounds me like a fascinating storm
Images of a life that could not be
Forced me once again, to set them free
With bits and pieces my soul
For nothing is left to hold on to
I try to stand tall and just get through
Starring at cluster of memories
We all went through
Or the places where we use to escape
The slighted mention of same
Sends chills through me still the same
Precious treasures of our time together
Now hidden away and stored forever
I remember how you we whispered in the class
Memories of sorrow, laughter and love
Conscience of whispers gone in the night
Histories ill will fate sometime
Rating the days of splendor as things not to forget
Rating days of monotony as times i soon will lament
As i ask the questions of life's mysteries down on my aching knees
Life goes on as tomorrow creeps it's way into present
I know that in due time deity will make for me a way
Regret, confusion, misery has no place inside of my space
I choose to live for the now and to keep a smile everlasting on my face.
Once again I had to pack away
In a secret wooden box, my spirit today

Don’t know how to claim

The closer you get to trust them the louder that voice gets it screams in your Soul.

When it does, all you fears of getting hurt again just floods in your head. “None stop”

It’s been 3 years my life is still stuck where you left me….

I clearly remember our last words to each other.

We use to be so called “BFF”. How can it be so easy for you to forget “US”.

You lied, you cheated, you broke my heart and he warned me from the start.

Guess it's my own fault for being so dumb

"I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid”

But today I decided to move on…. I will promise myself I won't care.

I’ll stop distracting myself from your stare.

“Because of you I never stray too far from the side walk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you”

I just want to claim all those tears I shed for you… time I fought with my loved ones.

I don’t know how to claim my tears.

A Lovely Haunting!

I feel the frozen wood of my coffin,
screech and snap under the weight of earth.
My frozen limbs reach out towards the sun,
craving for the one that I loved.

I lie dead and still in my pain in misery...
Remembering what my love did to me.
That dark frozen night, when my blood will spill.
For the murderous one that I love still.

Although I am dead...
I still feel a haunting dread.
A memory of blood...
and all that I have lost.

I smile trying to remember my late love's name,
the one that had torn my heart out all bloody and maimed.
I rise out of my coffin, in that dark frozen night with a scythe...
Waiting for a time just right to end that fool's life!

I found my love crying in despair over what he had done,
So found it in myself to give him one more shot under the sun.
I made a deal that I will not torment him anymore...
If he went to my grave and begged my love once more!

He went to my grave to beg for my love,
but instead he slit open his throat.
Now we are both dead and happy as can be in our little coffin,
His lesson was learned.
Now he will know that love will haunt him forever
here underneath the earth!

I Am Feeling Lonely Today..

There's a good side to getting hurt a lot...after a while it just doesn't bother you as much.

You can try your hardest, you can do everything and say everything, but sometimes people just aren't worth trying over anymore...they aren't worth worrying about...it's important to know when to let go of someone who only brings you down.
I don't know why your heart doesn't do what your mind tells it to.

I will be Stronger

Is it true you love me??
Still you set me free??
You promised for one more try was that lie or I heard it wrong??
I candidly set you above all,

You were the suitor that stood tall.
Or was I suppose to lead you on, In order for you to stay, so you'd be the won?
Is it a Bad dream???

We are not just a couple, but a great team...

We've been through so many tides

Can't we set away our prides?
You told me, You looked constantly at me,
'My beautiful girl,'
you said Love in your eyes
I could see As you lay next to me in bed
'We survived a whole four weeks'
'But we'll last so much longer'
You bent and kissed my cheeks
You made my heart feel stronger
Each subtle touch, skin upon skin, Each longing stare;
Would make my world begin to spin
All it took was for you to be there
Now you say I have slept with many other,
which make me feel oppressed....

I remember us sitting down,
On our favorite bench,
That's when you said..
"I think we should break up."
And that was the end of it,
You were gone,
You got off the bench,
Where we had carved out our names in a heart,

I saw the memories we had together; fade away,

The love of my life walks away.....